(I met Lulu when we visited Filadelfia Ark, a working farm where those who have no home, no hope, no future and no life, can find shelter and find their inner self worth).
A person has so everything, a job, money and a very nice easy life.
Till all is lost, everything with the wink of an eye, all is just gone….
I called Madelene at Fildelfia Ark and asked her if we can come back to the farm. She informed me the next day, Uncle Dirk said it is in order, we can come back. About a week later, very late one night we arrived back at the farm and moved in to Filadelfia number 46.
My soul was deeply troubled. Again I had lost everything in my life and landed on the landfill….this was how I felt. I was angry an embittered within myself, because I was sitting in the ditch of self-pity and the devil was laughing. “Down and out” and very angry at God.
The rules and regulations at Filadelfia are very strict for the first 30 days after moving in. You have to be at Church Service every day. This was no problem for me, still full of the worldly view and false church teachings I sat there every day in the Service and kept on feeling very sorry for myself.
Then’ one morning while I was taking a shower and hitting the wall, I said, “I do not know why I must find myself in these circumstances!!!” and a Voice answered me: “because you do not see the bigger picture!” I got such a fright when I realized that our Heavenly Father is speaking to me. It was as if I awakened from a dream. I then realized the world do not owe me anything, there is no entitlement to anything. No one is going to make things better for me if I do not get up and out of the rut, I have to pull up my socks, fasten my boots and get up. I am at Filidelfia Ark for a reason and I must start building my new life. The most important of all, I have to return to our Heavenly Father, this is where I belong.
So, slowly but surely I started to get myself together. Attending the Service every day, even if I was trying to find a good reason not to go, so in going I am walking back to life, my life.
Again our Heavenly Father showed his always present charity and merci and I found Him again. I made Him again part of my life. I am making lots of mistakes and transgress, but I am truly trying. Uncle Dirk is teaching us daily about our Father. Uncle Dirk is trying to give us the opportunity for a new Beginning, he talks talk us, and he reprimands us. Today I can testify with humble gratitude how our Father is taking care of me. Through all my doubts, self-pity and mistakes He picks me up and help me through the day and on this new road to walk with Him. He gave me a new beginning. He gave me a purpose to help and to serve. He gave me a new awareness and purpose in His acre. Suddenly the stuff I made important are not important anymore. All the unnecessary things just blow away with the wind, because my Father became my soul focus. In a situation the Father showed me that He will gather us and protect us like a hen her chickens. He taught me that when I am busy with things which are not the focus-point the Father and His Love, then I am busy with the wrong things.
Now I awaken every morning with a song in my heart. Maybe we have not a lot of earthly stuff, but there is no shortage of anything, because we are the Father’s children. He brought me home to work for Him. With His help I can make a difference to a broken soul’s heart. To stretch out my hand of help to a wounded heart along the road and to say: “come, let me help you up…”
He gave us everything! Not only His work and His income…He gave His life so we can live today and every day in His Mercy and His Love!
I am so grateful within my heart towards my Heavenly Father and Filadelfia Ark who did not only renew and saved my physical life, but more important than anything showed me the Path to Everlasting Life.